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Post by Mateo Alvarez on Oct 21, 2013 18:22:33 GMT -5
I lean up against the counter, watching as people streamed in. I was one of the first here- as I liked it. I hated how my dark brown eyes skimmed the crowd, and I knew I was looking for McKenzie. She'd just.. left. Yeah, I felt like a dick. I felt like a complete fucking idiot. But.. I couldn't forget her. Try as I might, I couldn't.
A soft sigh passes from my full lips and I bring my drink to my lips to take a large swig before pushing my hair out of my face, setting the empty cup down as I strode out into the center of the living room, grabbing a random girl by the hand to start dancing- someone had to get it going, and I was willing.. though she wasn't as pretty as McKenzie.
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Post by McKenzie Hall on Oct 26, 2013 20:49:36 GMT -5
It had been a couple of weeks since my encounter with Mat. There was no real closure for my leaving, which was something I owed him. I felt bad for leaving him with no explanation, but that would have been hard on me. I knew I had feelings for him that would turn into much more. I hadn't intended for that, it caught me by surprise, but I can't become attached to anyone; it only meant pain.
On a brighter note, I was on my way to another party down the road from my house; the host was a good guy friend of mine. We hooked up every now and then, but it was more on a friends with benefits basis. I got to the house and went up to him, he was in the kitchen. "Hey, you made it!" He beamed with open arms before swooping up my small figure in a bear hug. We stood there and chatted while we both took a few shots. "I need a smoke," I said before leaving him to go outside. I lit the cigarette and found myself staring off into the abyss, my thoughts on that night with Mateo
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Post by Mateo Alvarez on Oct 26, 2013 20:55:42 GMT -5
When the song ended I twirled the girl around, right into the arms of some muscular guy and I quickly disappear, back to the kitchen. I grab a drink and take a sip, walking back out to cross the living room and go out the door. "Hey, Mat!" a girl calls and I look over, offering a short wave before I keep walking to my car, pulling open the door to grab my pack of cigarettes before closing it again.
I shake my head a bit, climbing up on the hood as I light one, taking a drag before letting out a slow breath, watching the smoke uncurl into the night.
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Post by McKenzie Hall on Oct 26, 2013 23:08:20 GMT -5
I was lost in thought while taking soft, slow drags and the cigarette my fingers held. I heard a name, but sort of blew it off. I mean, what are the chances of us being at the same party at the same time? My eyes came back to reality before scanning the dark outside. Maybe that was his name who was called... No, Kenzie, get him out of your mind. You disappeared that night for a reason.. I sighed deeply before unknowingly pouting.
"I hate to see a pretty girl so upset," said some obviously wasted guy as he sat next to me. "Then go somewhere else," I muttered with a roll of my eyes before pushing him away. Maybe he didn't get the memo, considering he flung himself back to my direction, making me drop my cigarette. "Did you not fucking here me?" I yelled while jumping up. I stomped his crotch in before taking off into the house to find my friend who was throwing the party.
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Post by Mateo Alvarez on Oct 26, 2013 23:16:36 GMT -5
I sigh as I look at my nearly finished cigarette before my head snaps around at a familiar voice. It was McKenzie. I blink as she walks back inside, leaving a guy clutching his crotch in the fetal position on the ground. I drop my cigarette and step on it, grabbing my drink as I stride quickly towards the porch.
I stop halfway up the stairs. What if she didn't want to talk to me? She had left that night.. what made me think that she'd want to see me again? I huff with indecision before taking another drink and walking into the house, leaning up against the wall. I didn't know where she'd gone.
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Post by McKenzie Hall on Oct 27, 2013 12:12:50 GMT -5
I took a couple of shots while chatting with the host. "Girl, it's been a while," he said wih a mysterious smile on his face. His look made me giggle and shake my head. "It sure has. Life keeps getting in the way. I had to go to court a few times in the last couple of weeks." The thought made me sigh and frown. I didn't like thinking of what was going on, but I can't block it forever. He just simply nodded and at that I turned and left him to attend his guests. As I was walking, I accidentally ran into someone. "Sorry, I didn't see you," I muttered before looking up. "Oh," I whispered, lost for words.
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Post by Mateo Alvarez on Oct 27, 2013 12:45:21 GMT -5
I watch people dance, easily taller than most of the other people here so that I could see over them. I go to take another sip of the drink, almsot spilling it over myself as someone bumped into me. "Fuckin-" I start, glaring down at them before I stop, my eyebrows raising.
"..Long time no see." I state awkwardly, offering Kenzie a small smile. I didn't know what to say to her, really.
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Post by McKenzie Hall on Oct 30, 2013 12:51:34 GMT -5
I flinched slightly at his first reaction then smiled awkwardly. "Yeah..." I bit my lip softly and looked down at my feet, unsure of what to say actually. I wanted to give him an explanation, but the only way I could think of doing so is explaining what's been going on, but I didn't know him well enough. "I'm sorry." I shrugged before looking back up at him. "I'm sorry. There's just been a lot on my mind." I frowned softy before looking away, a bit embarrassed.
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Post by Mateo Alvarez on Oct 30, 2013 15:39:00 GMT -5
I watch as she looks at her feet before I glance away, a soft blush crossing over my cheeks. I was just glad that it was fairly dark so that McKenzie wouldn't notice. "I-uh, its fine." I mumble, shrugging my shoulders as I glance at my feet before taking a small sip of my drink. "Well, not okay, but.. it is what it is." I correct myself, offering her a wry smile. What was I doing? I should just let her walk away, not keep talking to her.
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Post by McKenzie Hall on Oct 30, 2013 19:40:02 GMT -5
A soft sigh escaped my mouth and I looked away ashamed at my actions. I was unsure of what to say that could help my cause, then it came to mind that there was no way except to just come right out with it. I grabbed his hand and guided him upstairs. There was only one unlocked room, the bathroom. I sat down on the unflattering toilet. "Well, I have a very troubled mind. Honestly, I went to that party with the mind set that I would just have a one night stand, until I saw you." I shook my head and looked away, trying to hold back tears.
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Post by Mateo Alvarez on Oct 30, 2013 19:49:13 GMT -5
I bite the inside of my lower lip, avoiding her gaze before she grabbed my hand and pulled me upstairs. I raise my eeybrows as McKenzie pulled me into the bathroom, wondering what she was doing before she sat down on the toilet. I nod a bit as she speaks, my stomach dropping. I should've known. That's all I ever really was, to be honest. But, what more did I expect when all I did was party? "That's all I was.." I mumble to myself before taking another sip of my drink, wanting to leave but not just wanting to walk out.
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Post by McKenzie Hall on Oct 30, 2013 20:06:56 GMT -5
A lump in my throat formed as I waited anxiously for an answer. His response made me hit an all time low. I got up and went to him. I couldn't help but hug him and bury my face into his chest, barely being able to hold back the tears. "No." I shook my head and tightened my grip. "That's what you were supposed to be." I shook my head again. "You don't understand... My mind." I hesitated on the last two words.
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Post by Mateo Alvarez on Oct 31, 2013 16:58:34 GMT -5
I blink as she stands before crossing to me, wrapping her arms around me as her blonde head found my chest. I hesitantly wrap my free arm around her, comfortingly running my hand down her back. Why was I still here? I just.. couldn't bear to leave. Fucking emotions.
"Oh, I don't understand?" I snap, shaking my head a bit as I pull out of her embrace. "What don't I understand? One night stands? I get the gist of those." I huff, pushing my hair out of my face as I look down at her.
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Post by McKenzie Hall on Nov 5, 2013 14:54:17 GMT -5
I shook my head in disbelief as I stared up at him, astounded by his reaction. "You don't understand me. You don't understand my mind, what goes on in there. I left because I couldn't bear to face you." I shook my head and glared up at him, still shocked at his outburst. I turned on my heel and left the room, leaving him by himself. He couldn't see my tears, no one would.
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Post by Mateo Alvarez on Nov 5, 2013 19:44:49 GMT -5
I raise my eyebrows sarcastically as she goes on that I didn't understand her. Of course I didn't.. myabe she was one of those people who thought they were so deep and complex that no one could begin to fathom what they'd been through. Or some shit. "Fuck you," I mumble crossly after McKenzie's gone. I take another swig of ym drink and walk out of the bathroom and down the hallway to the kitchen, grabbing a beer to crack it open and take a sip as I lean against the counter. No way was I going to leave.
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